Experiment from Windows 7

I’m writing this post from within Windows Live Writer on my new installation of Windows 7 Pro.

Really curious to see how well this is gonna’ work…

Update: Nice!  It worked flawlessly. No artifacts whatsoever from using the Windows Live Writer client versus the normal Blogger web interface for posting.

You asked if something was wrong...

I've been living with low level pangs of misery for the past couple of days.

Thoughts of you remain close to the surface of my consciousness. Throughout the day they keep bubbling up... sometimes out of nowhere... reaching the surface of my everyday thought world. The bubbles leave this foam on the surface that I like to shape & mold into pleasing images. Frequently these images create an energizing sensation within my physical body, mostly down in the hara.

The combination of these corporal sensations and mental images create within me such an intense, pleasurable experience I just don't want to let go of. But I know I need to... for not to let go will quickly turn into painful torture knowing we cannot be together.

Tired

There is a HUGE difference in the experience of being tired the next day because you were up till 4 am watching the ENTIRE Season 5 of NCIS alone...

...versus staying up till 4 am on the phone talking with an engaging, intelligent, warm, fun loving human being. The latter is SO much easier to deal with. It's a more wholesome tired. Tired with a purpose versus tired just for tired sake.

All Things New

Do you know that feeling you get in your heart when you finally get off the phone with someone you just met one day prior and you realize that your very first conversation with this person lasted nearly 7 9 hours?!

The heart says... "Wow... what just happened?" "I don't know." The head answers. Then in the stillness of the moment as you drift off to sleep, you realize there's this wonderful feeling of warmth & contentment emanating from within.

Ahhhh... New friend... New beginnings... Sweetness!

My Zen Life

Hey folks, Dharma Path (also known as John’s Dharma Path) will no longer be updated after this post.  Don’t worry, I’m not going away!!  Just moving to my new blog:

myzenlife.com

If you would, please update your links to me to reflect this change and come on over for a visit to the new site.  My “Welcome” post over there explains a little bit about why the change.

This site will remain for as long as BlogSpot let’s me keep it so the content here should be accessible for the foreseeable future.

I’ll “see” you all over at myzenlife.com!!

Wednesday, September 14th 2005

10:56 Good morning all!  How’s life for everyone out there in my blog-o-sphere?  Things here are just absolutely NUTS!!  I’m expecting another super busy day at work today.  I was here last night till 18:30 which makes my arrival back home at around 19:30.  That’s over 12 hours spent away from my family.  I don’t like to do this too often but it’s just necessary right now.  Hopefully things will calm down soon.  I’m just grateful today to have such a well paying job doing what I love to do.  There are so many out there that are jobless or are stuck in low paying jobs that they hate.  Gratitude is my practice today.

Tuesday, September 13th 2005

16:01 Oh Man, I’m just getting slammed here at the office today.  Calgone, take me away!!!

10:03 The Power of Now with Jesus and Buddha

The undercurrent of constant unease started long before the rise of Western industrial civilization, of course, but in Western civilization, which now covers almost the entire globe, including most of the East, it manifests in an unprecedentedly acute form. It was already there at the time of Jesus, and it was there 6oo years before that at the time of Buddha, and long before that. Why are you always anxious? Jesus asked his disciples. "Can anxious thought add a single day to your life?" And the Buddha taught that the root of suffering is to be found in our constant wanting and craving.

~ Eckhart Tolle, from chapter four "What Are They Seeking?”, The Power of NOW.

09:00 Oy.  Why in gods name did I stay up to watch the WHOLE game??  And to top it all off, my team didn’t even win.  Bummer.

Monday, September 12th 2005

16:04 FEMA Director is outta’ here!

13:50 I like this quote, a lot:

Meditation is learning how to listen with you own wisdom, so that you can see...
~ Lama Thubten Yeshe

10:56 There’s a zen saying “Tasting the Moment”.  With how fast my everyday life is; moving from crisis to crisis at work, watching the clock to pick up my daughter on time, getting her dinner once home, cleaning up the kitchen afterwards in between monitoring her progress with the bedtime routine.  How am I supposed to ‘taste’ the moment? It just goes by WAY too fast.

09:00 Good morning Dharma Path blog readers.  I can’t believe Monday morning is here already.  Bummer (I think I like this word).  Oh well, back to the grind.

Hey, it looks like I missed posting yesterday.  That could mean only one thing: I spent most of the day away from the computer.  That’s a good thing once and a while.  Especially when the weather was as nice as it was this weekend.

My coffee cup beckons...

EDJ #8

12:10 Barbara Bush: It's Good Enough for the Poor.  Are you freakin’ kidding me?  So much for compassionate conservatism.

11:11 Well, it turns out my wife is working this weekend.  Bummer.  Even though I like having time with Amy, I really miss the time as a whole family on the weekends.

Nothing much exciting going on today. The weather is gorgeous today.  I think Amy and I will just hang out outside and enjoy our time together.

EDJ #7

09:11 Good morning folks.  I slowed down a bit this morning and it felt good.  Usually on the days that my wife drops Amy off and I’m heading into the office, I like to get right out the door and pick up coffee on the way.  Today I decided to make coffee and breakfast at home before I left.  This provided many benefits.  The obvious one is it saves money (which is a good thing with gas prices as they are).  But the biggest benefit was being able to spend time with Amy helping her get breakfast and sitting down at the kitchen table with her.  Right before my eyes she is growing up.  She’s in first grade and loves it.  It’s such a joy to see how excited she is about learning all these new things.  I love talking with her about everything she’s doing in school as well as what’s going on in the world.  Her prayers last night just brought tears to my eyes when she prayed for the families and animals effected by the ‘big hurricane’.  She also prayed that our city be spared a visit of a hurricane like that in the future. Kids prayers are the best.